Chapter Twenty Three

Jesse lay in a crumpled ball on the floor, tears flowed down her face freely, and started to wonder how this went so wrong.

“Idiot” she cursed herself, how could she have been so stupid to do what she just had done. The look in Jon’s eyes had haunted her, hurt, fresh pained hurt. Especially when he had more than admitted he was started to have deep feelings for her, she knew that it had to hurt, understanding or not. She was so confused. She knew he had touched her in a way no man had possibly touched her before, even Jason, but why was she so scared to admit it.

She placed the hand that she had slapped over his face on his heart as her breathing became ragged, she managed to get herself up off the floor and sauntered toward the kitchen, reaching for a glass and a something a little stronger than the coffee she would normally have, reaching for the scotch.

She poured the warm liquid that burned her throat and drove her senses into alcoholic relief. She made it up the stairs back to her bed where she lay across the bed and clutched onto the pillow that only hours ago he was lying on, bringing it to her face she buried herself into it smelling his scent to comfort her, feeling herself beginning to shake as the tears came again.

“I’m so sorry Jon” she whispered. “So sorry” she mumbled as she curled herself around the pillow in a fetal position and fell into a sad slumber.

Jon drove off from the apartment; his heart was pounding furiously, out of anger and out of pain. He looked at his reflection in the mirror and rubbed his cheek that was visibly red where she slapped him, he knew his comments were unwarranted and he’d snapped. He should have thought of this, it was bound to happen, how could he so stupidly believe that she was ready to move on, when she’d kissed him, was she imagining it was him? When she caressed him? All the times they had made love over the last few days? God… no, Jon felt his stomach heave as he fought back the urge to be sick in the car.

“Fuck” he said banging his hands down on the steering wheel. He wanted to turn around and go back, but what was the use?
He knew he couldn’t turn up at Dot and the kid’s place like this, hell, he’d have to explain and he just couldn’t. So he turned down the familiar street to a road that took him to a place he so often went when troubled times came.

Richie had just been finishing up some composing, he had meant to wait till Nashville but he had been started to feel music flow in his veins, so had laid a couple of tunes down to challenge Jon in Nashville to find lyrics for. He glanced up when he heard the security gates go, looking he could see Jon’s car slowly ascend his driveway. Maybe he’d brought the kids over to see their Uncle Mookie; Richie loved those kids like they were his own.

He sauntered outside to the driveway where he had pulled up but soon saw he was alone.
Richie watched as his brother climbed out of the car and he had to take a double take, his hair was all dishevelled and his face pale but an obvious red mark on his left cheek showed.

“Kidd, what the hell happened to you?” Richie asked meeting him at the side of his car.
Jon looked blankly at his friend, with no shame as tears rolled down his cheeks. Richie’s usual warm welcoming expression had changed to one of panic and concern.

“I’ve fucked up Rich” was all he could say, Richie did the thing he knew best to do and pulled Jon into a bear hug and held him tight against his shoulder. Jon shook as the emotion spilled out of him.

They soon pulled away and Jon wiped his face.
“Shit sorry bro, it’s been a mare” he said rubbing his palms across his cheeks.

“Fuck, Kidd, come inside now and tell me what is going on” Richie said leading the way into his house and through to the bar Richie had, he disappeared behind the counter and produced two glasses and poured two fingers each of his top shelf whiskey.

“Here get this into you, and tell me what the fuck has you in this disarray” Richie immediately thinking Dot had finally lost it and told him he couldn’t see his kids or something.

Jon took the glass and knocked back the whiskey.

“Jesse” was all he said. Richie hid his smile. A girl had him in this mess; he hadn’t seen this in so long.

“What happened?” Richie immediately asked.

“I was so stupid, but fuck” he took a breath before continued running his hand thorugh his hair and recomposing himself.

“We were in the middle of, god damn Rich, I was giving her the treatment down there and she cried out her husband’s name” he cursed. Richie saw his eyes darkened before briefly mist up.

“Fuck Kidd, I am so sorry” he said sympathetically. Understanding why Jesse did it, he could imagine Jon’s hurt and very bruised ego at the situation.

Jon held up his hand “There’s more” he said before continuing after a sip to finish the drink.

“I went to leave and we argued, and I accused her of just using me to be a substitute for her husband and lying about wanting to move on” He held his head down. “I hurt her so bad” Jon shook his head.

Richie sighed; Kidd’s temper often flew away with him.
“She slapped you huh?” Richie guessed piecing his obvious red cheek to the incident.

“Yeah I deserved it though, and then I left her” Jon said sadly starting to regret what he’d done and his slip of temperament.

“You’re in love with her aren’t you?” Richie asked, his brown eyes seriously probing his friends.

Jon scoffed. “Yeah, I am fuckin crazy, it’s been a few days Rich, A FEW DAYS, but I don’t know she’s just amazing, insatiable” Jon trailed off.

Richie chuckled Jon looked at him with surprise, but soon noticed the irony of the situation that was dancing across Richie’s lips.

“Yeah fuck you bro” Jon said, as usually it was Richie in love so soon and besotted with a woman in a short period of time, which Jon had taken the time to pay him out on several times in the past.

“Well I didn’t think I would see the day you would fall so fast for a woman” Richie snorted patting his shoulder lightly.

“So what do I do Rich? I am scared, I am scared she really doesn’t want to move on and have a relationship with me, and I always will wonder if she’s thinking of me when-“Jon trailed off, he bit his lip as he didn’t even want to entertain that thought as it hit the pit of his stomach.

“Kidd, bro, I am going to give you some advice I recall some asshole giving me when I was drinking myself blind about five years ago” Richie said poetically. Jon wryly grinned. How did he know he’d use his own advice back on him?

“Don’t go to bed on an augment – you have to see her tonight and apologise and sort it out, and I for one, am not taking your sorry ass to Nashville like this” Richie said with a grin. Jon couldn’t help but laugh. Why was it he knew exactly what to say?

Jon stood up. “You’re right Rich, you are damn well right” he said standing up.

“Thanks man” Jon said as they embraced once again.

“Anytime, brothers right?” Richie asked.

Jon hit his fist with his own “Till the end” he said as he left the house.

He needed to see the kids before bedtime, but then it was back to Jesse’s. Back to possibly make the biggest grovel of his life and back to find out the truth, whether it was what he wanted to hear or not.

Chapter Twenty Two

They lay in each other’s arms just enjoying the simple pleasure and after glow of their little frolic. After feeding each other more food and wine, they decided to pack up and head back home since it was late afternoon and Jon needed to be seeing the kids tonight, as his time was becoming limited since he was heading to Nashville soon.

When they got back to Jesse’s apartment the small dull ache settling in her stomach, of his impending departure again. The day had been wonderful in every way, and she was finally able to relax completely with him. Her anxiety slightly showing, Jon smiled to himself, secretly pleased that she was starting to rely on him being there just as much he was starting to rely on her company.

“How about a coffee? If you have time?” she asked as she dumped her bag down and once again refilled the perk and switched it on. She didn’t want to sound too obvious but Jon didn’t hesitate.

Jon smiled “Sure honey, I would love that” he said as he sat down on the couch and watched her go about making their drinks.

“Can you do me a favour?” she asked him as she handed a steaming cup to him before settling into the couch beside him.

“Anything babe, what is it?” he asked sipping the drink, god did she know how to make good coffee. Dot always had made it too strong or too weak, but she seemed to have this nailed.

“When you are with Steph tonight, is it possible to grab a jacket of hers you know that fits her well?” Jesse asked him.

“Oh sure babe, no problem at all” Jon replied placing the cup down. He turned to her and lightly brushed the hair falling in front her eyes.

“I really enjoyed today, well hell the last few days” he said quietly, his sincerity of voice touched her heart.

“I have too Jon, I really have, it’s been a relief to finally, I don’t know, live” she admitted.

“Well I am very pleased to hear it and I am the same, I haven’t really felt-“he stopped this time to think through what he was going to say.

“Since Dot, earlier on, I have forgotten what just being with someone is like, to just“he chuckled “live” he finished matching her grin.

Jesse felt her Dutch courage taking over again, her senses started to reel at the close smell of him, the muskiness off the man mixed with a hint of spice tickled her nostrils. The smell very much reminded her of how Jason used to smell. She leaned in closer and her lips tickled his neck. A bemused smile played on his lips.

“Is there something you want?” he asked with a smirk, starting to enjoy this side of Jesse as she became braver with him.

“Uh huh” she murmured as she kissed down his neck and slipped her hand up his shirt to feel his warm flesh. Jon chuckled.

“You want to make me late don’t you” he groaned as his head fell back, her lips found his ear beneath the sandy brown hair.

“No, I want to make you scream” she whispered and she found on of his nipples buried beneath his tangle of fur.

“Jesus woman” he cursed lightly under his breath as he felt the now all too familiar stretch of his denim as he started tightening. Her other hand rubbed down across his girth, making him jump.

His lips hungrily found hers, as a throaty moan escaped his throat as his cock began to harden at her touch, so hard it was starting to ache for release. Jesse pulled back holding his eyes and pulled herself off the couch, not leaving his gaze, she pulled her t-shirt off her body and dropped it shamelessly on the ground and soon her jeans were in a pile at her feet as she delicately stepped out of them, still their gazes held, blue eyes burning with lust and brown eyes burning with desire clashed as she was left standing in her satin navy lingerie set. Jon took in every inch of her, she was beautiful, her long toned legs stretched up to her curvy hips and the flow of creamy skin up her flat stomach up to her breasts was staring to call to his primal urges.

She turned around and walked away still looking over her shoulder as she started ascending the stairs, her gaze still locked with his till she turned away and walked up the rest of them.. He finally managed to move himself out of the sexual hypnotic trance he was in as he followed her up the stairs. When he got to the top of the stairs he saw that she was already lying on the bed one, knee up.

Jon threw his top off and then started with his jeans; he stumbled as he tried to get them off his feet and almost landed on the bed.

Jesse snorted.

“You won’t be laughing in a minute” he warned with that famous Bongiovi smirk.

He finally shucked his jeans away and lay on her gently and pressed his lips against hers, finding her tongue as they began to dance with one another intertwined in their mouths, his hands glided over her body sending shock waves to her core. His hands soon found her panties and slid them down her legs.

“Wont be needing these, uh uh” he growled as his mouth burned down on her thighs planting butterfly kisses along the line from her hip to her aching wetness.

Jesse inhaled sharply as she felt his warm breath on her thighs, and the anticipation of what was to come next slowly drugging her aroused mind. She felt his hands slid up to her breasts and caress them with the most loving touch.

“Jon” she cried aching for his touch.

“I know, my love, I know” he said as he buried himself deep within her and his tongue soon found her swollen clit, as he began long hard strokes.

“Oh god!!!!” she screamed. Jesse felt a slight giggle whisper against her thighs.

“See I beg to disagree Darlin, on who will be making who scream” he remarked coyly.

Jesse fisted the sheets as still he continued, her mind had slipped away from reality, and back into the land of what once was regular pleasure and love making, god it felt so good. Nothing was better than a man’s touch, especially this way; to her there was nothing more intimate so as she came she cried out.

“Jassssssooon” it escaped from her lips all too soon.

Jon froze as she came, and as if someone had shot an arrow right into his heart. He stopped completely dumbfounded. The wave of nausea swept over him, and the shock of her face registered quickly.

“Jon I-“she stumbled as he got up off the bed in a hurry and threw his jeans on and pulled his t-shirt on top of him.

She called out his name? After everything in the last few days?

“Jon! Please I didn’t-“tears started welling up in her eyes as she pulled herself off the bed and pulled her robe on racing towards him.

“Please, I am so sorry, I didn’t mean to-“but Jon cut her off.

“Save it Jess, please. I wondered if you were truly ready for this, I really did” he said with a tone of discontentment before continuing. He looked at her his stance softened.

“I’m sorry, this is not your fault, its mine for thinking that you ready to move on and that you were actually starting to fall for me, not look at me as a substitute for your husband” venom shot out of his mouth and straight in her heart.

Jon felt a sharp sting as her hand connected with his cheek.

“How dare you say that, you have no idea what it’s been like” she said as tears starting to fall down her cheeks. Jon turned and walked down the stairs, he just had to get out and clear his mind.

“Jon!” Jesse yelled as she followed him down the stairs “Jon please don’t go! Not like this” she pleaded as he grabbed his keys and phone and walked towards the door.

He turned to her briefly before he opened the door.

“I am sorry Jesse, I am sorry that you didn’t find what you were looking for” he said as he walked out and slammed it hard. The sound resounded through to her heart. Tears escaped her eyes and slid down her cheeks as her body slid down the door to a crumpled heap as she cried her heart out.

Chapter Twenty One

Richie watched his friend walk out of ear shot.

“So Jess, Jon looking after you? Cause if he doesn’t you just let me know” Richie said jokingly but with a hint of seriousness.

“He’s been great Richie, perfect” she said as she watched him pop his trunk and pull out his guitar.

“Pleased to hear it, because I haven’t seen him so damn happy since about since least a year ago” Richie said honestly. Jesse smiled a thank you for the compliment.

Jon came back and sat down with the black acoustic guitar.

“So what you boys going to play me?” she asked teasingly as she sat back savouring what now lay before her.

“Any requests?” Richie asked raising his eyebrow at her, his brown eyes sparkling.

“You guys pick, you’re the experts here” she said as she picked up her wine and took a long sip of it.

Jon nodded and Richie returned it as they both started their slow strums and Jon’s voice started crooning the lyrics out.

It’s all the same, only the names will change
Everyday it seems were wasting away
another place where the faces are so cold
I’d drive all night just to get back home

Richie joined and harmonized with him

I’m a cowboy; on a steel horse I ride
I’m wanted dead or alive
Wanted dead or alive

Jon strummed and looked up at Jesse, catching her warm glow of admiration.
Richie watched on as the two of them looked at each other. He smiled and bowed his head shaking it softly.

“Hey Kidd, I just remembered I need to check out a couple of things before Nashville so I best be doing that now” Richie said. Jon looked quizzical at his friend.

“Rich, you don’t have to go” Jon said.

“Oh yes I do” he chuckled throwing a wink at Jesse. She smiled a little confused at why he suddenly was leaving.

“I was enjoying that” she protested.

“Darlin, you will see plenty more of that in Nashville I promise, come and hang out with us in the studio for a bit, but it does get boring” Richie chuckled.

“I would love that, really” she replied.

Richie rose taking his guitar with him, Jon rose with him, and they met in an embrace.

“You’ll thank me later” Richie snorted in his ear.

“Later gorgeous” he smiled to Jesse as he walked back to his hummer.

Jon say back down still a little worried, but his questions were soon answered as Jesse leaned forward to lightly push him down on the blanket which took him by surprise, she rose above him and laid herself down on him pressing her body against his.

“I want you” she whispered, not really sure where this confidence was coming from, seeing him performing, at just a glance, sent her nerve endings reeling as his sultry vocals had pierced her soul.

Richie’s hummer soon burst into life and with a toot of the horn it was gone.

“Baby, what’s brought all this on?” he chuckled as his hands swept into hair as pressed his lips against hers.

“Seeing you, just seeing you sing like that” she whispered as she continued kissing down his neck running her tongue lazily across his Adam’s apple. He elicited a small groan as she continued; she lifted up his t-shirt and began entwining her fingers through his silky soft fur.

Jon glanced around to make sure they were alone and thank god it was private land, he usually didn't risk this but something was telling him to do so. His heart was pounding loudly in his chest as he realized the huge risk he was about to take, which just made the whole situation that much more arousing.

Her lips found his sweet nub and she sucked on it lightly bringing him to life under her.

“Jessss” he hissed as he arched up instinctively. Her other hand ran down his chest across the dip in his stomach and down to the beginning of his jeans where she flicked the button and found his warmness now waiting for her touch.

“Baby, please... God Jess you don’t-“

“Hush you” she whispered as she kissed him hard, her hand now freeing his shaft from the confines of his denim and stroking it softly in her hands.

“Oh fuck me” he groaned as his eyes snapped shut and head arched back, her mouth soon found his nipple as she flicked and stroked him at the same time.

His body was on fire, he felt trapped, vulnerable and unable to move due to the sensations that were firing across his body, and her warm touch was incredible on his flesh. Her lips left his nipple and she kissed further down his chest into the dip of his stomach her hands slid around to his jeans and pulled them all the way, his gaze met hers as she looked up at him and grinned before descending her wet desire down on his shaft taking him fully into her mouth. Jon reached out and fisted a bunch of grass in his hand.

“Sweet lord” he muttered as she began to lick hard down his shaft.

His other hand found the mop of her brown hair and he tangled himself in her hair urging her on.

Licking, sucking and biting gentle she started a quick pace on his shaft that she felt him buckle underneath her.

“Jesse, please not yet –“he whimpered not wanting to let go her, he wanted to make her feel just as she was making him feel right now. His mind being hazy and pleasure started to wash over him.

Jesse stopped briefly and looked up at him, his tortured face matched the unrest omitting from his body.

“Let it go, let me win” she whispered as she took him back in her mouth.

“God, Jesse, please mother fuck-“he bolted his hips as he felt himself give his sweet release.

She felt him cum at her mercy, his hot seed spilling into her mouth, she pulled away.
Resuming lying on top of him, he grabbed her neck and pulled her to crash on his lips, tasting himself on his lips; he pulled away and rolled her so he was on top of her.
He spared no time pulling her tee up to reveal her soft flat stomach as he laid his sugar down across it moving up to her breasts; biting through the satin fabric he teased them.

She groaned and arched her back.

“Jon” was all that escaped her lips.

She had never felt so good having a man’s lips on her body like his. His fingers quickly found the buttons of her jeans and made easy work of them to let his hand slip inside. One finger, and then the other.

“Ohh god Jon” she cried as she gripped his hair. His hand freed her bra clasp so he had full access to her breasts. Swirling his tongue around his nipples his fingers continued to assault her slick wetness.

“So wet baby” he mumbled into her breast. She pulled his shoulder up so he rose above her; she hooked her arm around his neck and kissed him hard pushing through his lips as she moaned his name over and over.

Jon had her on the edge as she bucked and cried out hoarsely. Her pupils dilated as she came back down to life. Jon watched her return to life under him. He chuckled.

“Earth to Ms Adam’s, you there?” he whispered. She found her focus as the final waves of ecstasy washed over her body and looked up at him, his blue eyes shining into her own, matching every bit of intensity she had felt.

“Jon I – “she stopped, she didn’t know how to say it without him getting the wrong idea too soon.

He smiled “Its ok, I know, and me too” he replied stroking her hair back from her face.

Chapter Twenty

Jon drove Jesse away from the hustle and bustle of the city. He’d made a call prior to them leaving so when he pulled into a deli that was just on the outskirts of the city. Jesse was surprised when he came back to the car with a huge picnic hamper that looked like it was packed tight.

“I thought we would need some supplies” he said as he put them on the backseat of his car.

“Wow – what is in there?” Jesse asked amazed at the size of it.

“Just wait and see” he chuckled before pulling out on the highway again, around ten minutes later he pulled off the road onto a dusty driveway that went onto some land that looked like no one occupied.

“Where are we?” Jesse asked looking around.

“Don’t worry I didn’t bring you here to kill you” he teased. Jesse slapped his knee playfully.

“That’s not what I was thinking” she laughed.

“Trust me” he said as he drove on for another few minutes. They finally came to a small river that ran all the way as the eye could see. He stopped the car.

“Here? Is it safe?” she asked unbuckling her seat belt.

“Relax, I know the owner, its private land and I have an understanding with him if I ever need to get away from it all, I come here. I used to write out here occasionally, bring the kids out here when Dot was driving me up the wall” he added not mind sharing that with her.

“I can see why it’s gorgeous and it’s so far away from everything” she said climbing out of the car and stretching her legs. Jon popped the trunk and grabbed a woollen blanket and picked up the basket.

“Follow me milady” he said as he walked into the distance and came to rest under a large oak tree that draped over the river. Laying the blanket down he motioned for to sit.
She scuffed off her sandals and sat down cross legged while Jon lay down the basket; he did the same and kicked off his shoes. Opening the large cane basket he pulled out a bottle of wine and two plastic wine glasses.

“I’ll pour, you get the food” she chuckled as she took it off him.

“Hungry are we?” he asked with a grin.

“Well I have been busy” she said with a smirk.

“Indeed you have” Jon agreed as he paid out two plastic plates and soon an assortment of breads, smoked chicken, pasta salad and brie cheese filled the plates.

“Holy hell Jon, how much did you ask for?” she said pinching a piece of bread and chewing on it.

“Enough, you aren’t in a rush are you? We’ve got all day, I see the kids later tonight, but till then I am all yours” he said, he trailed off almost asking her if she wanted to meet them, but he wondered if that would be too much too soon for her, so he didn’t.

“Is it hard not living with them, you know and being able to see them everyday?” Jesse asked layering some cheese and chicken on her bread.

“More than you know, its hell. I am lucky as I said Dot lets me pretty much come and go as I please to see them and they do stay with me when she does her work things. But I guess one day if she dates again that may change, as in the free entry to the house” he chuckled.

“This is true, how would she feel about you dating? And the kids?” she asked biting down on her sandwich, the rich flavours the chicken and brie filling her mouth.

“I am dating now am I?” Jon asked raising an eyebrow at her smirking.

“Maybe” she said as she continued to eat with a small grin on her face. Jon just suppressed his laugh through a smile. She was amazing, she really was.

Jon picked up his plastic wine glass and half lifted it to her.
“To new beginnings and very pleasurable company” he said very poetically.

Jesse smiled and returned her glass to click with his.
“I will drink to that” she agreed. Hey both took a sip and continued their chat about life and things in general becoming more and more relaxed in each other’s company.
Jon was about to suggest a walk down the river, when a loud grumbling engine that was familiar to Jon’s ears ripped through the peaceful silence.

“What in the hell-“Jon stared as the black hummer came into view and parked next to his car.

A tall sauntering figure sprung out of the driver’s side.

“Well hey hey, look who is here!” he shouted across the way at Jon.

“Oh God” Jon groaned as Richie started sauntering over to them with a guitar in one hand, in loose jeans and a black hooded sweater., his hair fell loosely around his face.

“Hey bro, what are you doing here?” Jon asked as he stood up and gave Richie a brief hug.

“I thought I would get away for the day and pen some ideas for when we are in Nashville and I haven’t been out here in forever, but I see you bet me to it” he said flashing a huge Richie typical grin in Jesse’s direction.

“Jesse, finally good to meet you” he said, Jesse stood up.

“You too Richie” she said putting out her hand. Richie scoffed and grabbed her off guard and gave her a huge hug.
“Kidd’s lady doesn’t get handshake from me” he said as they pulled apart.

“So you two kids came out here for some privacy huh?” Richie said wiggling his eyebrows.

“Sort of, but you might as well stay for lunch now that you are here, I have heaps of food” Jon said gesturing to the picnic blanket with food.

“As long at you don’t mind, I wouldn’t want to be getting in the way” Richie snorted.

Jon jabbed him in the ribs, Jesse couldn’t immediate help but notice their camaraderie and ease with each other.

“No you won’t be, we were just-“but Jesse cut Jon off.

“Richie we would love you to stay” she said, Richie just raised an eyebrow, a woman that knew how to over ride Jon already. This would be interesting.

“Alright you got me darlin, I am starving” Richie said sitting down and helping himself to a plate and piling it high with food. Jon sat back down next to Jesse and resumed his meal.

“So Kidd all set for Friday?” Richie asked Jon.

“Yeah I think so, I need to pack but that won’t take too long, and of course my visitor will have to work out when she can come down for a bit” he said nudging Jesse softly.

“Ah yes, Jon told me you were coming, I hope you do know the rules Jess, when we are away recording all wives, or girlfriends have separate rooms, and we have an unspoken rule, no sex, just deters the mind from all the creative flow” Richie said serious as he could.

“Well I have no issues with that, I am coming to see-“but she was cut off.

“Don’t Jess, Jesus Sambora you are full of shit sometimes!” Jon said throwing his crust of bread at him. Richie snorted. And Jesse blushed realizing she’d fallen for the dark haired guitarist’s ploy.

“That will keep you know” Jesse said winking at Richie.

“Oh you are a little feisty one aren’t you? Well I look forward to it” he said winking.

“So, you are going to play something for me?” Jess asked Richie pointing at his guitar. Richie smiled.

“Now how can I resist that?” he said picking his guitar up, he sat it across his legs and strummed a few chords before striking a soft sensual melody, Jesse leaned back into Jon who embraced her from behind as they both sat back and listened to Richie’s little melody. He played for a good ten minutes losing himself in the moment, with just the sound of sweet acoustic filling the silent air.

Richie stopped when he noticed Jon was stroking Jesse’s arm and placing small kisses on her neck.

“Now, I feel like one of those old men at an Italian restaurant that comes out and plays the violin for a romantic couple” Richie said making puking motions with his fingers up to his mouth.

Jon and Jesse both laughed.
“Sorry bro, but was that new piece, that was really poignant” he said complementing his partner in crime.

“Why thank you, it was a little something I have been working on, but we need some lyrics” Richie said thinking out loud.

“We’ll think of something” Jon assured him. Jesse was fascinated the way they both seem to blend and toss around ideas so quickly, the mark of two people that had been in the business a very long time.

“You got your guitar here?” Rich asked Jon.

“Yeah it’s in the truck but I don’t think we need that as well” Jon said not wanting to turn this into a work session with Jesse here.

“Oh, no go get it, I would love to see you play” Jesse said urging him on.

“Really? Well ok, be back in a minute, and Rich behave yourself” Jon said as he walked back towards the car. Leaving Jesse and Richie to talk among themselves.

Chapter Nineteen

Jesse froze at the words, she backed away and grabbed a near by towel that was hanging on a near by hook and rushing out of the bathroom wrapping herself it in.

“Shit!” Jon muttered to himself, he hadn’t meant for it to slip out like that. He didn’t bother with a towel, more concerned where she would go and ran through the bedroom, she wasn’t there.

“Jesse!” he called as he ran down the stairs padding into the kitchen where she was standing in the corner, dripping wet shaking.
He came up and leaned her gently into the wall.

“Jesse, I am so sorry, it just slipped out, and I have a habit of doing that” he added wanting to touch her but he was cautious trying to read her.

She trembled, she was so shocked he had uttered those words to her, she loved the time she had spent with Jon so far and she knew a bond was quickly forming with them both, emotionally and physically but the thought of love hadn’t even entered her mind, and how could she even consider loving someone since, well since then.
A lone tear slipped down her cheek.

“I’m being pathetic” she said softly with a small smile.

“God, no you aren’t” he said wiping her tear away with his thumb still keeping a safe distance.

“Jesse, I am so sorry I scared you like this and please it’s the last thing I want, but you have to face that I am beginning to care about you very much” he softly said running his hand down her arm.

“I do too” she simply said back to him.

“I just-” she stumbled a little.

Jon backed away to give her space “You can tell me baby, anything” he said as he leaned back against the counter.

“I’m scared Jon, I am scared of letting go” she said quietly, as another tear fell down her cheeks. It pained Jon’s heart to see her like this. She wiped them away with her palm.

“I mean, I know he’s gone and he’s not coming back, and I accept that. And what I am starting to feel for you, it’s just, different and a big step” she admitted.

He smiled and took her hand pulling her closer to him this time and wrapped her in his arms. He kissed the top of her head.

“Jess, baby. I totally understand, and you know what, whatever pace you want to do this at, I am fine with as long as you just promise me one thing” he said into her hair. She remained silent as she buried herself into his chest. So Jon finished.

“Please just tell me, at anytime how you are feeling and or its going too fast or anything, if you aren’t comfortable with anything please just tell me and I will back off, not completely though” he chuckled.

“I promise Jon, and thank you for being so patient with me, you must think I am a nut” she sighed into his chest.
He pulled her chin up and stared right into those eyes which were freshly lined with tears.

“You’re no nut, trust me. You’re a beautiful, confident, sassy lady and I want nothing more to help you through this and maybe just one day…” he trailed off, he didn’t want to say it but Jesse knew what he wanted to say.

“One day” she confirmed as he met her lips in a soft kiss.

“Ok now I am going to get dressed, we have places to go and I just know where” he said with a gleam in his eye. As he left the kitchen not before kissing her forehead.
She watched his naked body walk back up the stairs.
How did she get so lucky to have someone so patient?

She put on another pot of coffee just as she flicked the switch on there was a knock at the door. She wasn’t expecting anyone as people would know she would be at work. She swung open the door to find Kia there armed with two tall takeaway cups from Starbucks.

“Kia!” Jesse said surprised.

“Hey you, I was so worried when I rang you at work, you are never sick!” she said as she bolted inside dropping her things on the table and handing her a latte.

“I am fine, really I just –“Jesse stopped as she saw Kia’s eyes widening looking right past her. Jesse turned around and Jon had come back sauntering down the stairs…still naked.

“Uh, hi Kia” Jon said slightly embarrassed before he grabbed a near by throw off the couch and slung it around him.

“Hi Jon” she looked back at Jesse and raised her eyebrow.
“Sick eh?” she asked with a smirk.

Jesse blushed “You got me, I was playing hooky” she laughed; Jon soon came to Jesse’s side and draped his arm around her waist and kissed her shoulder lightly.

“It was my entire fault Kia, I am being a very bad influence” Jon said with a grin that nearly floored her.

“Oh I bet” she laughed “Can ya’ll go and put some clothes on” she said, “You’re making me very jealous standing here all looking like this” she chuckled.

“Sure hun, I will go and throw some clothes on” Jesse laughed as she left Jon’s side and walked back up the stairs. Kia just smiled at Jon.

“I don’t know how you did it” Kia said to him.

“How do you mean?” Jon asked confused.

“She has never looked as happy in the last six months as she does right this minute” Kia said as it was true, the long seemingly forgotten sparkle had again returned to her friends eyes.

“Well I try, she’s still very fragile and I am aware of that, so I will be very patient with her” Jon added. Kia looked him hard in the eyes.

“If you hurt her, God, Jon, You have no idea what I have been through with her, so I want nothing more than he to be happy, but if she’s just a little Rockstar nibble on the side –“she trailed off.

“Hell no, Kia, listen to me. Jesse is not that, I am over all that shit, hell I just got divorced, but there is just something about her, I know she’s very special” Jon said sincerely.

“Well I am pleased about that, because if I find out you were lying, I would hunt you down” she warned with a grin across her face.

“I wont, I promise” he said as he walked away to go upstairs to change, or well put clothes on. Kia watched on as the tanned well maintained body walked away, Jesse came back down the stairs in jeans and a tight black baby v neck. She slapped Jon’s butt playfully as he walked past her on the stairs. Jon gave her a quick kiss before disappearing up the stairs.

“God I think I am going to puke” Kia said rolling her eyes dramatically, Jesse picked up her latte.

“So you going to give me the lecture?” she asked Kia jokingly.

“Nope, none at all – he seems great” she honestly said to her friend.

“He is Kia, I am very lucky, he’s so patient and wonderful” she said. Kia could see that Jesse still was hesitant about something.

“You still thinking about Jason aren’t you?’ she asked

“Yeah a little, oh and Jon asked me to go to Nashville next week or so to spend a few days down there, they are recording down there for a few weeks” Jesse explained as she slipped on her sandals that were on the floor.

“That’s great Jess, you deserve to get away, and I am really pleased for you” she said looking at her watch. “Oh I need to get to work, some of us have to work you know” she teased. They hugged goodbye and Kia left.

Jon returned into the living area now clothed again. The fresh smell of soap and his scent filled her as he wrapped his arms around her waist from the back.

“You ready to go?” he whispered as he buried his face into her neck.

“Yeah I am” she replied reaching up and ruffling his hair gently.

Chapter Eighteen

Jon had walked down the stairs into the dark kitchen below which was dim until
he flicked on a light and notably thanking that they had pulled closed the blinds before bed last night since he was wearing nothing right now. He found the coffee canister and added it into the perk before refilling it and switching it on.

Leaving the gurgling pot he strode back into the living room while he waited for it to brew.
Walking along the large bookcase he noticed a photo album, knowing he shouldn’t look without her permission, he quietly opened the pages which were filled with her memories, from adorable child candid snaps to her life with Jason. He smiled at how happy she looked in his arms and noted the undeniable sparkle known as love that gleamed in his eyes as well. He closed the album and placed it back in its place, and now smelling the string aroma of warm coffee sauntered back into the kitchen and poured two mugs of coffee and continued to walk lowly back up the stairs.

Jesse had been laying back, she’d called work and now was a free woman for the day, and she felt guilty for all of five minutes remembering what she had to look forward to for the day and who she was spending it with. A small part of her told her she was still so unsure of what was happening, but the rest of her controlled by the very content loved body she was now resting told her she should just enjoy this as long as it was destined to last. Closing her eyes for a second with a small smile on her lips she wasn’t aware of Jon coming back into the room.

“Hey no sleeping on the job missy” Jon teased as he placed a mug down on her side of the bed.

“I’m tired” she grumbled sleepily chuckling.

“Sit up” Jon ordered, Jesse did and watched how Jon pulled her blinds open so that the sun was coming streaming into the top level of her apartment through the bay window onto the bed.
He climbed behind her and wrapped himself around her so she was lying back against his chest, and he was leaning up against the headboard his legs were wrapped around her waist. Handing her coffee back to her, he grabbed his as she leant back into him.

“I could stay like this forever” she commented while she stared out the window.

Jon took a sip of his coffee “I couldn’t agree more with you baby” he said, Jon was also looking at a gorgeous view, but it wasn’t outside the window. How did it become that he felt so relaxed with this woman in only a matter of days, when he fought for years to come only close to feeling like this with Dot.

“What did you want to do today?” he asked her.

“Well I can’t go out someone will see me from work” she laughed.

“Not the places I know” he said knowingly. Always looking for places to escape the mainstream of reality he knew a few good spots that were shielded from people.

“Ok, I trust you” she said as she ran her hand down his leg that was draped across her belly. It omitted a small growl from Jon. So she rubbed it just a little further up his thigh.

“You’re very naughty Ms Adams” Jon growled into her ear putting his coffee down.

“Did you want me to stop?” she asked innocently as she felt his warm breath on her neck.

“Nah, don’t stop” he said flexing his arms around her middle pulling her closely.

“God Jon-“she started to talk but then stopped

“What is it? You can tell me” he said encouraging her tightening his grip around her.

“I just, I mean…I guess what I am trying to say, is that I have missed this so much” she admitted hopefully not sounding like a hopeless sap.

“I do know what you mean though. I really do. I was just thinking that myself. The last few years of my marriage I can’t actually remember when I did this with my wife.
I mean we were still close, physically but it was more a chore, or to convince ourselves we were still in love, when we weren’t” he admitted to her openly.

“Believe me I kind of know what it’s like. I mean Jason and I were happy, but when he first was enlisted god, did we hit a rough patch and he was never home and away, and it just got harder, till I decided enough was enough and put my foot down. And he changed after that” she explained.

“Well he was sensible, Dot kind of did the same to me, but I went the other way and decided to leave” he replied.

“Well I guess we may have the chance to try this again, …maybe” she said smiling.

“I am glad you feel that way as I certainly do” he said kissing the side of her temple.

The sat there just happy to be in each others company and enjoy the silence that on this occasion was warming. Occasionally touching each other sensually, kissing and snuggling. Jesse piped up.

“I do feel like going out” she said as she tried to move from his grip to get up.

“One condition” he said as he purred in her ear.

“What’s that?” she asked feeling herself grow warm just at his low huskiness.

“I have to have shower” he said “And I am not sure if I can manage that on my own” he said suggestively in her neck as he licked her collarbone. Jesse shivered.

“Well we can’t have you not managing, I am sure I could assist you” she said coyly as she finally pulled herself away from him and walked towards the bathroom. Jon took no time following her flipping the bed covers to the ground as he went.

She flipped the shower dial until the shower started to fill with steam. She was about to turn around but Jon took her off guard and pressed her hard against the shower wall, the warm water falling on them both. His lips found hers urgently as he slipped his tongue past her lips and teased her tongue with his. She moaned and rested her hands on his thighs.

“I want you so bad” he murmured into her mouth.

“I thought you needed cleaning” she giggled as she wrapped her arms around his waist.

“Oh I do baby” he replied as he picked up the soap that was on the shower rack and rubbed it down his chest; he picked her hand up and placed it on top of the soap. He then moved her hand down his chest slowly so that the soap slid down through his mat of fur. Slowly he started circular motions; the sheer intensity of the touch was killing her. He moved the soap off him and onto her chest and placed his hand over it and began producing a thick lather over her chest, he moved to her breasts and lightly scrubbed them making sure to skim her nipples a few time.

“Oh god” she moaned as she threw her head back against the tiles, Jon moved his soapy hand down her abdomen to her flat stomach, rubbed her belly gently before continuing leaving a long line of suds down to her nest of curls.
Jesse quivered as the intensity of sensuality became an intensity of want.

Jon dropped the soap letting it fall to the ground and slipped a finger into her slippery and now soapy wetness. She grabbed onto his shoulders jerking them towards her to hold onto him. Slipping another finger into her she moaned his name.

Lifting her leg up around his waist she hooked it over his hip giving him better access to her. He slithered his index and middle finger into her slowly contracting her.

“Jon” she whimpered as she was about to crumble in the man’s arms.

"That’s it baby; just let it go for me” he whispered. Her other hand slid down to his warm wet member and she embraced her hand around his sturdy length beginning to stroke him in rhythm to him pulsating her.
He let out a deep rich moan from the bottom of his throat.

“Shit, Jesse” he swore as he had to brace himself against her as she continued her assault. Finding her mouth his lips engaged hers and he kissed her with a force that was not to be reckoned with leaving her breathless. She could feel herself starting to climb.

“Yes, yes, Jon, that’s it, GOD!” she screamed as she buried her head into his shoulder.

The vibrations became more urgent as she stroked him harder feeling his release near with how hard she was being crushed to the wall by him.

“Jesse, harder Jess, harder, please!” he cried as she felt his release and his warm seed spilled into her hand quickly washed away by the still warm water elapsing over their bodies, Jesse felt her release as she held on tight to Jon’s neck gripping her now free one against his hip.
He reached down and took her nipple in his mouth the faint taste of soap didn’t deter him.

“Oh god, fuck Jon, fuck!” she cried as the now familiar wave of ecstasy washed over her. She clung to his body for dear life as they rode over her.

Breathlessly she looked up at him. His face was flushed and his eyes were burning with desire.

“I love you” he said quickly, Jesse felt her whole body turn cold.

Chapter Seventeen

Jesse awoke the next morning, again wrapped in someone’s strong arms wrapped securely around her and her face nestled in a bed of soft fur, with a slightly spicy musky smell that she now recognized with Jon. She slowly pulled awake to try and now wake him. They spent most of the night watching TV and then decided to have an early night both of them just content to sleep closely nestled against each other.
The dawn had barely even whispered through the blinds, as she began to move away but soon realized a pair of soft steel eyes were staring right back down at her.

“I didn’t know you were awake” she whispered in her morning breath.

“Just making sure you didn’t do a runner on me” he chuckled.

She blushed and laid her palm flat against his cheek.

“Wouldn’t dream of it” she replied reaching up and softly brushing her lips against his.

He responded by moving so she was cradled in his arms as he began to kiss her back with such an intensity that Jesse was thankful she was already lying down. He turned her gently over so she was lying flat on her back and ran a finger down her cheek and all the way down her body down the centre till he reached her thigh, he felt her start to quiver under his warm touch. He could tell she was aroused as the warmness he could feel radiating onto his hands was prevalent.

He leaned down and began kissing up her tummy to her breasts slowly she tasted so good, and he took in her now familiar scent which was mixed in with sex.
Jesse instinctively stretched out her arms above her head as she let him take her. Kissing, nipping all around her breasts, he started to tease her nipple which became instantly erect.

“Mmm” she moaned softly and squirmed in appreciation.

Jon continued kissing up her body till he reached her mouth. His tongue danced in mouth. She could barely catch her breath.
She reached for his head and pushed gently down, urging him to move lower.

“Tell me what you want” Jon whispered hoarsely, as he could feel himself becoming hard against her leg.

“I want you” she breathed back.

Jon moved lower, kissing and licking his way down her chest and belly. His tongue licked all around her thighs just on the edge, sending shivers through her body.
He lifted her hips slightly and with his long tongue began licking her, in long strokes but only ever just teasing the surface and not pushing into her warm slick folds like he wanted to.

She kept moving her hips, hoping he would get the hint of where she wanted his tongue to be but he carefully moved with her, so to keep her on the edge. He wanted to just push her boundaries a little more.

“Jon, oh god, please.....”

Jon looked up at her, a sly look on his face; mischief had crept into those blues eyes of his “Soon my darling, soon.” He drawled.

He went back to the sweet torture he was inflicting on her but his desire had gotten to the point where he was afraid he might cum right here in the bed. He needed to be inside her.
He was ready and he was hard as, climbing back up to meet her she pulled him into a desperate kiss and pressed him to her body. Her hands slipping down the vast contours of his back; and coming to rest on his firm ass. She squeezed it gently.

“You know this ass was voted the best in rock and roll” he murmured into her neck.
Jesse giggled.

“And is that in accordance to the book of Jon?” she asked giggling.

“Hey!” he pretended to look offended and pulled a pout out of nowhere.

“It was a magazine actually” he stated “A poll” he said trying to keep a serious face but failed miserably.

“Well it’s the best ass I have touched” she whispered in his ear, her husky voice ticking his ear drums sending shock waves down his body.

Her hands slid from his ass to around his front where she ran her hand down his hard length slowly dragging a nail with it.

“God woman, you have no idea what you do to me” he shakily responded. Continuing to stroke his hard length, Jon had to brace himself to not lose complete control.

“You want me baby?” he asked knowing he couldn’t take much more of this.

She nodded slowly, he spread he legs wider once again reaching over to the nightstand for a foil packet, slipped it on and wrapped legs back around his waist kicking off any remaining bed covers that shielded them.

He slid into her slowly feeling her accommodate him as she let out a whimper as he filled her nicely. Starting on a slow thrust and then building up to a good rhythm he began to drive her home for everything she was worth.
She moaned under him, he had the perfect view watching her get off by him, harder he drove into her. He was now grunting as he felt he was close to orgasm, and he could feel she was as well.

“God Jess” he panted as beads of sweat started to slide down his forehead and temple.

He moved slightly his hand so that his thumb could gain access to her and began rubbing her clit.
She let out a muffled cry edging on a scream.
She wrapped her legs tightly around his body trying to get him do go deeper. He felt so good inside her, especially after all this time.

“Oh god Jon....harder, I want you to fuck me harder,” she panted. Her face now
thick with sweat, as she gripped onto him.

Jon increased his rhythm and the friction against her clit. He knew she was near her orgasm because she suddenly stopped moving. He slammed into her as hard as he could and she screamed out his name and dug her nails into his shoulder. Jon groaned at the pleasurable pain.

Her orgasm came in waves. She thought she might have blacked out for a second, as everything in her world seemed to come to a halt except for the amazing feeling spreading all over her body. She didn’t want it to stop.

“Keep going, please” she breathed as she knew was going to cum soon
Jon kept thrusting into ever inch of her, knowing that his climax was near now.

“Oh baby...” he moaned tilting his head back exposing his neck to her and moaning gripping harder onto her hips as he exploded inside her. She reached up and took a long hard lick across his Adam’s apple.

“That’s it baby” she cooed him watching him empty himself in her.

“Fuck, yes, yes!” he screamed finally stopping. He looked down at her and leaned forward to kiss her, they met in steamy yet delicately sweet kiss as he slid out of her.

“Oh wow” she breathed as Jon rolled on his back to catch his breath. Jon couldn’t even answer her. She was right. What he had just experienced would stay with him a very long time.
The rude beeping of an alarm clock sounded.

“Nice timing” she chuckled as she shut it off. He rolled over to face her wiping her brow that was equally lined with sweat as his.

He didn’t say anything except kissed her lightly on the lips, smiling into her brown glazy eyes.

“Can you call in sick?” he asked cheekily. He had a good taste of this woman and he wanted more, like an addict looking for his next hit. She was intoxicating to him.

“Jon, I can’t do that” she chuckled as much as she wanted to.

“Please for me, I just really want to spend the day with you, with no interruptions at all” he pleaded picking up her hand and pressing it against his lips.
All strong will that Jesse possessed flew right out the window. She didn’t want this to end; she hadn’t experienced the craving and urgency for a man’s touch as she did right now, Jon’s touch.

She rolled her eyes.

“Do you always get your way?” she asked as she ruffled his hair reaching over to the nightstand for her cell phone.

“Pretty much” he smirked.

“Thought so, now make yourself useful and get some coffee” she playfully said as she dialed her work’s office.

“Yes ma’m” Jon said swiftly getting up and walking away from the bed not bothering to put any clothes on as he walked away with a mischievous smile playing on his lips.